What would we do, babe, if texts and e-mails didn’t exist? Heck, what would we do if facebook didn’t exist?... besides be miserable and not know one another or be able to function together comfortably. You know, I kind of think it would be hard, but then things like what Im doing now, and how we wrote through the mail when I was away shows that either way, we would be the freekin’ bomb passionate pair. For some reason, writing to you makes me feel so alive and it feels so rejuvenating every time I get to read your thoughts in your writing that you write to me. It makes me feel like im with you then somehow. Its so crazy because I’ve never thought the way I think now nor have I ever felt the way I always feel now and I know for certain that it is because of you. It scares me sometimes so much that I want to go back to the way that I used to be. Keeping that distance and withholding that trust so that I don’t have to risk so much of myself and my heart. But I think of what all I have to gain and how much of a benefit I can be to you and realize even with such a great risk its worth it because you and I, even in the worst possible scenario, could still end up being the best blessing or even life experience to one another…one thing is for sure though, I don’t want you to just be a good life experience that I went through. I want to still be with you years down the line and grow in life with you and because of you.
Just thinking about you babe, this is the type of stuff I think about whenever im texting you, “thinking of you”. Ill tell you about my week and the crazy lessons I learned and saw later this week. Keep me in your mind and on your heart baby, I will keep you in my prayers and on my heart too.
later hon,
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